Zelch. Nowhere to be found. 
Anyways.. So I'll give in and restate my story as it was before my fucking computer froze.
I have this horniness erupting inside me from time to time these days. I know it's relaly weird for me to talk about this on a public blog, but hey, it's what I wanna fucking say. What the fuck are you gonna do about it?
Anyways.. Theres this relaly hott hott hott guy in my AP bio class.
His name is....... no wait. You never know who's looking, so im just not gonna mention his fucking name. He plays football. He's (as ive mentioned before) HOTT. He's like the only senior guy that is decent enough to talk to in that class. The rest are geeks, freaks, nerds and losers. Those no-life people. Shit me. Anyways, so he's fukcing hott, and he always seems to be complimenting on my clothes and stuff. Stuff like, "Hey, you look nice today" and stuff like that. And also stuff like "Hey, you smell nice today" Or sometimes even stuff like, "Hey, you look hott today. I think I'm gonna fucking jack off or something". Stuff like that.I know I don't look ugly or shit, and I'm a modest person, in a way, so I wont say I'm the most beautiful person in the whole world (I actually think Jessica Alba is). But I've heard of those compliments pretty often before, so they're actually relaly nothing new to me. Except for when HE says it. It sounds so different, you kno? I KNOW he's just kidding around about the jacking off thing, but still. And no, he's not one of those jerks who disrespect the ladies, even though he really has a lot of friends (Duuuuuhhhhh he plays football, you stupid fuck.). Ahh. Am I making it sound like I have a crush on him??????
Well, if I am, then let me tell you taht that's certainly not the case. Nope. No crushes yet,.............. altho i would relaly luv another man back in my life. I mean, it's good to be FREE and everything, free to hook up with any guy my mutherfucking heart desires and shit, and it's good to spend lots of quality time with my other friends, but still.. Kinda lonely ya kno?
I know my relationships dont last long.. I think the longest one yet was only like a year and a half. Fuck, I really cant understand people who go out with their gf's/bf's for more than like 2 or 3 years. One of my girlfriends and one of my guyfriends have been goin out for about 3 years now. Wow. I wouldnt be able to STAND it if I were either one of them. But then again, maybe it's just me.
I relaly wanna fuck guys these days.. Literally. I kno i kno, it's fucking weird, but it's pretty normal to start thinkin about sex and stuff around my age, ya kno??
If yu go around and ask ppl my age if they ever think about sex at least once a month, and they say NO, then you just KNO taht theyre fucking lying. Just like if you ask anyone my age if theyve masturbated yet, and if they say no, then theyre fucking lying, also. TAMBIEN. Fucking liers. I wouldnt mind ppl not telling, but I really would mind ppl who actually say they dont when they relaly do.
If you dont wanna fucking tell, then don't, you know? Dont end up making a fudkin FOOL outta urself by telling those fucking stupid and obvious lies. That's fucking retarded.
I think I'm the only one of all my girlfriends who hasnt had sex yet.. Yeap, that's right, I'm a motherfucking virgin.
Ima break that as soon as I go to college, or at least, as sooon as possible.Hopefully at the junior prom afterparty?? I dunno. Let's see what happens.
It's just that I feel SOOOOO left out when all my gfs are sharing their fucking stories.. When I actually dont have one to tell.
YES, I've actually done all the other stuff except for giving blowjobs and actual sexual intercourse, you kno. So I guess I have SOMEWHAT of an experience with different guys.. But that still duznt make up for still bein a virgin, you kno what I mean?
Idunno.. maybe it's only my friends who are already not virgins. Maybe I'm at the normal pace, and theyre just a lil bit faster. Agg, I dunno. Fuck it.
Shit Shit Shit. Anywyas.. I gotta go finish up my fucking homework once again, so ttyl kiddies <3
xoxo MWA